Today, I had Kokoroyajuku-Open Counseling.

Open Counseling is for a donation.

There were 5 people in the counseling.

They had their own themes to talk,

and today,

I thought,

the underlying theme of the whole counseling was

"LOVE YOURSELF".

There are many people who can't love themselves.

I was one of them.

I may still be one of them.

Today I thought

To love myself completely is to love myself unconditionally.

And I wondered

how many of us can love ourselves unconditionally.

I learned colour therapy and

I learned the word "unconditional love".

And I witnessed the unconditional love occasionally

for children or spouses.

It's rare to see those who love themselves unconditionally.

People, including me, tend to love some parts of ourselves.

For example,

I like me who can win the game.

or

I like me who drives a big car.

or

I like me who controls the situation completely.

And

I don't like me who can't get full score in the exam.

or

I don't like me who are fat.

or

I don't like me who don't have many friends.

It is like judging us by ourselves.

Many years ago,

I tired not to judge myself

because

someone said to me,

"Do not judge yourself"

to love myself.

At that time,

when I noticed that I judged myself,

I thought "Oh, I did again" and felt terrible.

"Do not judge" caused another judgement.

So, today I thought

Love myself unconditionally is similar to "not to judge myself"

but totally different.

If I focus on "Do not judge",

I may try to stop some of my habits or behavior.

It is like I am saying that

certain behavior or habits are good

and others are bad.

And it is judgement.

Judgement continues endlessly.

If I focus on the "unconditional" elements,

no matter what I do,

I am loved,

I am good .

Even if I can't get perfect in the exam,

I am OK.

Even if I am fat, I am OK.

Even if I can't control the situation, I am OK.

To say OK to everything is not easy

because we have criteria for good or bad

which related to the judgement.

However, If we become more forgiving for ourselves,

we might be able to love ourselves unconditionally,

and may be able to have fun happy lives.

In order to love yourself,

to be more forgiving and generous for yourself may be the key.

2017.09

Love myself